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Tennessee Williams, The Glass Menagerie

Would you believe me if i told you that everything i’ve had said to you is true? Would you believe every word or would you doubt? Would you believe me if i told you i really loved you with my heart and soul? That i wanted to spend the rest of my life with you? Would you have believed me? Did you know that you were my future? Everything i planned on in my future was with you, did you know that? Did you know that you made me feel like the best i have ever been? You made me feel invincible. Nothing in the world mattered as long as you were by my side. When i really think about it…i felt like i lived in two different worlds when i was with you. My world with you and a different world when you weren’t around. I always felt like a different person with you…it wasn’t a bad person or a bad feeling…it was good…I felt better with myself…i loved the feeling…learning new things…seeing new opportunities and and loving in different ways is what i felt with you….I loved living that way…i loved it better than my normal life with my parents and family….Now i see everything with open eyes…and i dont like how im becoming….i dont like how people think around me…i dont feel comfortable….I wanted to keep learning your ways…it fascinated me…You always fascinated me, didnt matter if it was good or bad…you were always interesting and questionable and puzzle like and i had to figure it out. It’s funny because even with you being all puzzle like, my life felt complete….and everything made sense…now everything is just a major blob and nothing makes sense. You were on my mind so much that every time someone asked me what was my typical guy was….i always described you without even knowing…Huechee..you promised to love me, cherish me, respect me, and you said that you believed in me…Where are you now? You didnt love me…you didnt cherish me…you didnt respect me…you gave up on me when i needed you the most…and what did i do to you that made you leave? I didnt fight for you….all i didnt do was fight for you…but you did all of that to me…you hurt me mentally, physically, and emotionally….but why is it that my heart still cares so much for you? But then again you have no room for me in your heart and im no longer in your heart….I should really hate you from everything you’ve done to me…but why cant my heart hate you? Why must everytime someone says something bad about you, i always have to defend you? WHY?! you probably dont do it for me, so why should i do it for you?!…..they say that the moment you forget a memory, you also forget the soul…youre probably there already…and i will be there someday…i hope…..

- Then where are you now when i need you the most?

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Cookies and Cream Cheesecake Cupcakes

From Martha Stewart’s Cupcakes

Makes 30

Ingredients:

• 42 cream-filled sandwich cookies, such as Oreos, 30 left whole, and 12 coarsely chopped
• 2 pounds cream cheese, room temperature
• 1 cup sugar
• 1 tsp vanilla extract
• 4 large eggs, room temperature, lightly beaten
• 1 cup sour cream
• Pinch of salt

1. Preheat oven to 275 degrees. Line standard muffin tins with paper liners. Place 1 whole cookie in the bottom of each lined cup.

2. With an electric mixer on medium high speed, beat cream cheese until smooth, scraping down sides of bowl as needed. Gradually add sugar, and beat until combined. Beat in vanilla.

3. Drizzle in eggs, a bit at a time, beating to combine and scraping down the sides of the bowl as needed. Beat in sour cream and salt. Stir in chopped cookies by hand.

4. Divide batter evenly among cookie-lined cups, filling each almost to the top. Bake, rotating pan halfway through, until filling is set, about 22 minutes. Transfer to wire racks to cool completely. Refrigerate at least 4 hours (or up to overnight). Remove from tins just before serving.

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